My anxiety about the race is slowly changing into excitement, I work up this morning totally jazzed about running a half marathon. I have been getting down about myself lately. I am always thinking that I could be doing better and, of course, I could be. Unless I all of a sudden become perfect there is always room for improvement, but as long as I am trying to do better then I am on the right track. This time last year I as I was just discovering weight loss blogs I remember thinking maybe one day I would try to run/walk a 5k but that running 13.1 miles was insane and I would never being able to run that far, nor would I even want to try....it just seemed to far out there. Its thoughts like this that I need to keep reminding myself about, because there are times when I feel like a teeny bit of a failure for not doing more, like running the marathon. For example, this conversation has happened with many people:
Them: "you're running the Rock N Roll marathon?"
Me: "No, just the Half - Marathon"
Them: "wow, that's awesome"
Me: "Yeah, but its just the half"
Arrgg...Just typing that makes me annoyed at myself. It must be sooo annoying to talk to me because I am such a downer. Why not just say - "yeah, I am running the half marathon and I am so excited!!" Instead I am such a negative nelly. Anyway, my point is - I need to recognize how far I've come and what an accomplishment this is for me. I write about this a lot on this blog - recognizing the accomplishments I've made and it isn't fishing for compliments or praise, I really, truly, tend to feel like everything I do isn't good enough and its time to figure how to move past that and be happy for me. Anyway...check in for today:
Calories Consumed yesterday: 1559
Calories Consumed so far today: 1,044 (a little high, but all I have left today is dinner)
Exercise Yesterday: Stationary Bike for 50 minutes and 4 mile outdoor bike ride with Olivia
Current Weight: 157.5
Lbs to Goal: 32.5
This check in thing is actually really helping me...if I haven't entered my food in my food diary by the time I post my blog and go and enter it and it helps keep my dinner calorie in check so I don't get too off track for the day!
3 comments:
Thank you! I am so glad you are realizing how amazing you are:) Open up and share the excitement!
wow you have gone down in weight so good!!! i understand the whole negative thing. surround yourself with positivity. positive notes, smiley faces anything. running is nothing to sneeze at not a lot of people can do it so you are my hero
Yeehaw Amy!! Almost there! I'm so excited for you, what an amazing thing to have under your belt.
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