When I first started this journey I knew I had to exercise at some point in order to really be healthier, so about a month into changing my diet I decided to take up bike riding. I went to Target (yes, Target) and bought the cutest bike they had for the money I wanted to spend (not a lot because I wanted to make sure biking was something I would love before spending the big bucks). The first time I rode the bike I went about a mile, just sort of riding around to get a feel for the bike. The next night I went out for a Real Ride on my bike. I took ride on a loop through my neighborhood, which was 2.5 miles long. I came back feeling good, no Great, about myself. I had gone for a bike ride and worked out. I felt accomplished and like I was on the right path. Fast forward 5 months - I went on that same 2.5 mile loop this morning, only instead of riding a bike, I used my legs and ran. I am not sharing this to point out how awesome I am but because I came home feeling like I am not doing enough. I felt like I should be able to run faster, cover more ground in my 30min run. I felt disappointed in myself and it bugged me. In 5 months I have gone from riding my bike the same distance to being able to run it. That's huge. I need to stop putting myself down. I think that is part of why I turned to food so much, thinking I wasn't worth the effort to eat healthy. I need to break the habit and that part of the purpose of this blog for me. A journal that I can look back on and remember why I started this journey and how far I have come, so I can be proud of myself and not feel stupid for being proud.
